I'm changing my blog URL to http://vanillamartini.multiply.com because I'm way past my wasted-by-CS phase and I'm tired of people asking me whats up with that. Also, I dunno whats up with vanillamartini. And this will take effect from Vday which is tomorrow. I'll try to transfer all memories to that blog pronto but it'll be an eventual thing. Til then.

I'm sad and bored.
My period came today, what the.
As a result, stayed at home and didn't go lou hei at aunt's. Cause my first day always comes with accompanying cramps and debilitating stomachaches. Damn... So I'm forced to listen to the funeral wake service thing downstairs. I'm stuck home aloneeeee.

:( lonely tonight.

So CNY has been really great so far, although no gambling. Visited a lot in the afternoon with my dad's side, then dinner over at my mom's sister's place in the evening. Great as usual :D

I watched Secret again that day. Although I'm not a fan of Jay Chou and have to rely a lot on the subtitles to understand what he says, I cried again at the last part! Super sad k! The part where she sort of dies and writes on the desk with white-out and everything. Roaarrr. Some cool person put it on Youtube in 11 parts. Here's the first.

Ok imma sleep and maybe Ben and Greg are coming over tomorrow! :D
Goodnight :)

CNY eve is tomorrowwwww. :D Going back to school, then lunch, then help to prepare for reunion dinner. I can't wait! Though I'm not very close to my relatives and cousins and everything, and it'll totally suuuuck that they'll inevitably ask about my results, but CNY is always fun.

Ok, for CNY I shall buy a Guess? wallet, and I need new shoes and a boyfriend. :(
I know I've been saying this like forever, but really lah! But I also don't want one. Cause I'm so lazy and antisocial :) Okok, I wish for a bf with no hormones. Yay.

I NEED SHOES. OMG.

Atika I need to buy ripples! But no size! :(

Sorry, random rant.

I miss:

sitting in front with April,
talking about all the teachers, students and classmates with her,
going to Harbour with Melissa and Penny after exams,
eating in class,
Yang Meh Meh saying, "ZHEN3 GE4 SUBJECT SCRAP DIAO!"
turning around and seeing Jane and doing something random like waving,
rummaging for books below my desk,
Ba Kwa and Ah Pui running around in the cage on my desk (SIGH),
Ba Kwa and Ah Pui running around my desk,
teacher of choice going, "Eh! Put the damn hamsters back ok!"
having chocolate chip muffins in Mdm Nisah's class,
falling asleep suddenly during afternoon chem class and my pen skidding,
walking to the toilet from 4/4,
chinese lessons and bi3 zi4 ben3s,
walking to the back of the class to pretend to throw something then disturb Susie,
sitting with Lynette during free periods and talking,
trying to study by myself/with April during other free periods and ending up falling asleep,
having to sms in my bag/below table
Stall6 tomyum noodles+ the 2 aunties,
Stall7 laksa + the auntie and uncle that serve it,
fried tofu from Stall8,
chao-ing band pract with Amirah and Zenice to have cup noodles from SP then come back,
sectionals with A, Keith, Steve,
playing mallets/xylo,
assemblies in the morning,
taking bus at like 740 when all fairsians/acsians are alr in school,
the auntie's daughter at Stall1 who always knows what I want,
buying random things from the bookshop,
chao-ing after recess assembly,
Ms Ang's math class where her voice like drills into your head,
going toilet during those 4 periods cause very unbearable,
Ms Christine's classes in general,
Ian's face when sometimes he walks past and sees her in class (sorry Ian, your expression is priceless.),
The Look she gives April and I when we are talking when she is,
muttering, "Sorry, sorry" and focusing back on the books,
taking 33,
going "EEEEE! SLUUUT" whenever c****** walks past,
studying with Sukardi and Amirah at the spine,
watching soccer,


Ahhhhh so many things I miss about school :(

Atika and I went to pierce together after getting pay (yay!) and ending work.
We@ the piercing/tattoo studio.
You have until the middle of the entry before the answer is revealed to you. I documented it!
She goes first!
And... it's done!
My turn..
Yay! (fattttsssss for me.)

Ok so like I really don't wanna regret this piercing, had it for fun but I've wanted one since dunno how long ago. First question everyone asks is whether it hurts, it does, but it's bearable, lah. We did the thing at Johnny Two Thumb(s?) at Queensway. It was overall a good experience. I hope I won't take it out, like my nose stud! I dunno, we'll see how it goes. But I like it so far.

New year is like next week and it has just started to sink in that I will have to say my four-word greetings to all my elders and receive red packets from them, yay! Ok I went out with Julian and Yijun and their friends today. :) We had Fish & Co and walked around to buy J's new year stuff! Wanted to ask Lynette to come and watch 27 dresses together, but she v tired. :( So oh well. Alsooooo, after that I went home, changed, and met Bryant and Sera for NYDC Holland Veeeeeee :D:D:D

I can't wait to wear my new clothes. And I spent like nearly 100 dollars today on don't-know-what. Oh, I lent 50 bucks to Ian. So I spent like 50 dollars on don't-know-what. Oh, Julian owes me 20 dollars. So I spent 30 dollars on don't-know-what. Not bad, ah. Managed to spend 30 only and get owed S$70 in one day.
I feel like buying a new phone, if not what to do with the cash like 700 bucks collecting dust. And more coming on monday! I'm going to get a very special piercing that is not easily visible! (No, not genital.) I'll show you soon!

I went to school in the early afternoon to look for Ms tan, to collect something :) Haha. Mr John lim treated me to lunch. :) Sat through a music lesson with Phups, Roy, Yan, Alex and their class, then left for work.

Made by Fei :)

You make me real
For the rest of my days
In so many ways
You make me feel

I've been trying to leave you
Why should we go on like this?
But my heart can't breathe
When I hear you say
"It's better this way"

Ten thousand light years away from you
Keep thinking maybe it's time to let go
But by the end of the day
I still want to say "do you?"

Except for the fact that I was super tired. Ok I'll try my best to blog my day in entirety ok, cause 1057385918501 people are talking to me on msn.

I woke up at 630, panicked like crazy la. I kept snoozing my alarm, hhahahahaha. Mom said she would wake me but when I left the house she was still sleeping. 8) Reached CC at like 710, did opening. It was fun! Helped Atika open the bar. Also, in like the two times that I did the 7 onwards shift, I've learned that more often than not, the whole opening crew has breakfast together. As in, either the kitchen will whip up something for the manager/supervisor, people on the floor and the barista and we'll eat behind the bar, or like today, someone will buy a list of stuff from a specified place and we'll take turns to eat because the morning is never busy. Today, it happened to be me.

Me (just finished messaging behind the bar)
Fazlee: Hey, Red, you free now?
Me: Yep.
F: Sure?
Me: Yes.
F: Ok... can go buy breakfast for everyone including yourself?
Me: From where? Food centre?
F: YUP :D (Hands me a list and twenty five bucks)
Me: -_-

So I made my way across the road via the overhead bridge, and handed the friendly malay lady the neatly compiled list written by Maxx. (Faz=Maxx, Maxx=Faz) She and the stall next door gave me everything I needed and then I went back to CC, and everyone had breakfast. :) Atika and I were bored cause there were only customers outside, and so we started to do weird things. I'd already had a cup of tea with milk and like 4 packets of sugar. Then, there was a doppio (double espresso) that a customer wanted in a big cup so he could put milk in it but VJ made him a new one, so I added like 1? 2 packets of sugar into that puny little cup, stirred it and downed it in like 3 gulps. Super bitter, omg, the sugar was of no use at all! It sure perked me RIGHT up. I was like there telling them, you'll have to be peeling me off the ceiling later. Like that wasn't enough... Told you Atika dan aku (hahahahah) were bored, right? We made 3 portions of solos, pulled Maxx over, and the 3 of us bravely drained the tiny cups with no sugar, no milk, in one gulp. Strangely, without the sugar, the taste did not last very long. (Trust me, they nearly had to scrape me off the ceiling.) OH WELL! VJ and I also sampled orange juice + apple juice (not bad), and Atika and I ate like 1 1/2 slices of lemon each. Like, pop it into your mouth and chew. It wasn't that bad, surprisingly. Either my lemon slices were some other fruit masquerading as a lemon, or... the espressos I had numbed my sense of taste. That is a very real possibility ok, they were bitter as HELL! They are also the main reason why I can't sleep now. Damn. Also we danced around (HAHA) and I went like really high after SUGAR AND COFFEEEEEE! (Who watches All that?! :D)

I can't really remember the rest of work, my shift changed so I worked 7-6. And now Atika wears the blue bear, Fazlee wears the white bear, Raihanah wears the pale pink one and I have the dark pink one! They all match our pens except for Raihanah, her pen is greeeeen. :) Oh, also the part where we kept making fun of (bitching about) Allen (IN HIS FACE). Really, you know! It's like great.

Fazlee: You think you management trainee you big f***, ah?!
Allen: *stroking his chin* YAW.
(Stunned silence ensues while Fazlee glares at Allen. Allen doesn't seem to realise that he's done wrong of any kind and instead believes he's the one wronged. All the people listening to the exchange don't know whether to laugh (loudly, punctuated by many loud snorts and pointing at Allen) or cry (because they do not know what they have done to meet a person such as this, really). It was quite wonderful.)

I swear, there is no other way to describe the sound he makes. It's not "Yeah" it's not "yah". It's, quite simply, "YAW". Complete with deep and loud tone, just as the upper case suggests. Those who have never/will never meet him or someone remotely like him, treasure your good fortune. Trust me. And it doesn't help that the speed at which he talks (or tries to form coherent words) is comparative to roughly the speed of fingernails growing.

Anyway, I ate with Fauzi and Raihanah, and then I went to meet Bryant <3 Or rather, he came to meet me. We went to find his birks, I went to get more bears, we met his friend, went to Swensen's, tried to converse in Malay... Haha I really love time spent with my bitch.

What the ****, my day was like shit, had breakfast with Melissa that was good, work sucked, met Jeremy and his friend to hang out, that was fun, then went to Valley Point to find G and Char, that was great too, then came home and it magically turned shitty again! 

Yes it's true!
I will:

Party like a rockstar
Look like a movie star
Play like an all star
F*** like a porn star!

&&&I wanna shop somemore.

What the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
Okok I resolved not to screw myself up.
Other people and circumstances are doing that for me.

Damn.
I need a hug, like, now. :(

Damn, man.
On the brighter side I passed Chinese (omg), Science and Math! Can you believe it?
I also got an A2 for English, a really great disappointment, I'm sorry Ms tan.
I wanted my A1:(

I'm sorry to everyone who believed in me.

We've waited and waited and finally the day is here.
God bless all O level 2007 students.

Lynette came down to find me after work today and we Subway-ed and Vivo-ed.:DIn forever21, we saw this little kid lying down under a table. She was like there without any parental supervision or anything. And she was also trying on the shades and accessories. Super cute laahhh, she looked like mix caucasian chinese but her mum (?) looked nothing like her. Kept wanting to talk to her but she was like sleeping. Or something.

Oh oh oh the colourful toucan top from Ripcurl!!! :D I likeeee.
Lynette said it's not worthit though :( But I like! Hmm. My mom also said not worth it.
Pull and bear.I liked this dress but I look fat in it.We met Huichin, some guy friend of hers whom name evades me, and Elyna :D
Aldo, pretty shoesss!
Her aiming sucks. See ah....
Ok THIS ONE I TAKE ONE.
(kinda suck also. but better than hers!) HAHAHAAh. Perfect!

Then went back to CC to take Melissa's umbrella, ella.
Omg retard face.
Thank you Fauzi. :)
Hahahaha, is this what it feels like to have a boyfriend? LOL OK KIDDING AH NETTE. Love :) Yes today was grate (misspelled on purpose, just felt like spelling it liddat.), however she said I was moody when she first came around 7. And emotionless. Why ah? I also dunno. End up only working 30 hrs this week cause I had to bail on thursday. Supposed to be 41. Pfft. I'm the 3rd highest paid part timer now. Lol. First is Atika, second is Raihanah. She (A) apparently alr hit 1000, said Fazlee. Anyway. Fei was unhappy today. :( I think the whole CC like quite no mood today. I also dunno why.

I gotta go to Bits&Pieces and buy some earring thinghys for all my 8 earholes and I really need to pierce somewhere.

So today met melissa for breakfast today again. I didn't oversleep! haha. Then we had a macs breakfast and I went to work. It was mundane. Then supposed to knock off at 8 and then go meet mum but she busy/lazy/wanted to watch tv today so I again hung out at the club (HAHA.) Azman came down to find fazlee so we ended up sitting at the alfresco area and talking (cause they wanted to smoke duh.) We had a good long talk about everything under the sun and it was good. (thats good thats good thats gooooooood) Yup so like it was okay I guess, and as you all most probably already know, O's results are released to students this, uh, thursday. Argh. And that's an understatement.
I feel so fat and untoned. Pfft.

Anyway, random photos.



If you're reading this, I miss you.

I want this as my funeral photo.
That'd be funny as HELL! (Neeeow!)
I shall go watch Dunham and destress. BYE :D <--- only smiley used in whole post! What a miracle. I LOVE PEANUT! Omg omg omg. And I'm meeting Lynette tomorrow yay!

Word of the day: Chey.
(Hahahaha inside joke.)

I think you may be the one who will make me black my eyes and slit my wrists
You're gonna make me do things with my lips
Your face I dearly miss
I'd do anything for just one kiss
For you I have torrid passion
Although your jeans may not be in fashion
It's too much of an insipid fascination
You may think it's a vapid obsession
You're so wrong, you're more than a man
And this is more than love, understand
Although you may have black nail polish on your hand
When you're around my legs give way, I can't stand
Decipher this feeling I must
I know it's more than lust
On me a spell you've cast
To see you again is my task

Sofi and I.As you can prolly see, her eyes are like 10 000 times bigger than mine. QIANG! I was trying to be taller.

Raihanaahhhhh :DOh nearly forgot.
Must issue warning about the next 2 photos.
If you want to watch a horror movie, forget it. Just save the money, print out this picture and use it the same way- to scare yourself.This one, also can.

So new everything. First up, I decided to change my hair. LOL. Went to City Plaza by myself to remove all, then put new ones. Wanted to put highlights but couldn't find a colour I liked, so maybe next time lar. &&&my mom made pineapple tarts! Yummy :D But she make is to give people one. Damn :( I wanna go new year shopping! For clooooothhhheesssss.

:( I gotta go church by myself tomorrow. Who wants to force me to get up?
I tell you, you will be literally risking life and limb.

Fei fei is ok already! :) Ok I don't feel so bad now. But oh man I was seriously highly contagious during that period of time la. Raihanah and Fei got the worst of it until they had to miss work. Zakiy caught my cough, Sofi caught my flu, a little bit. Thamil also I think. Andndnd Qiang was like sneezing today &I was like ohmg! But turns out he has had sinus since young. Whew. Hahahaha damn funny, I everytime refer to Fei fei until he sound like a girl. But he's actually a guy. And work was fun today! Photos up later on when I'm not so tired.

I realise that I'm very antisocial these days. And lazy. I actually don't mind going places by myself, which is quite sad. Was at Kent Ridge for maggi goreng that day by myself, Yanzi was meeting Nes there and he saw me and he said I have no friends :( Thats sad. Oh well. Haha! I'm going to go bathe and read Dean Koontz's Velocity until I fall asleep ok, tomorrow will be great! Alright g'night :D

ps. I really wish I had a boyfriend. But then again, I really don't want one. Just don't wanna make up my mind. One day I will do pros and cons.